when you hate me like i do. you hurt and hurt and want it to go away but death is your only option guilt is also the only way.. to die is to rest to rest is to die how much longer till i want to rest my heart and soul outta of this god forsaken world and just stop punishing myself for what i am and are not.. when will it be good enough to just be me without all the pain only they say god can answer these but then how can suicide be illegal if i just want answers???