hello hello everyone. I havnt written in a while and i cant sleep SO i figured why the hell not....
Things in 2010 arent going as well as i planned, found the most amazing man ever and he dumped me the day after my birthday because i told him i loved him...Whateverrrrr im over it. Iv decided im going back to college but im going to go to college out of state. i want out of this state so bad. Still living at home with my mom and dad... not where i want to be BUT i cant really do anything about it. its either be here or be homeless. I lost my job back in december because i got swine flu and was out of work for 2 weeks. They labled me as a "liablity". again...WHATEVER. I lost a bunch of weight. if you havnt been able to tell i went from a size 20 down to a size 13. and still losing more! Im so proud of myself for accomplishing something i have been working so hard to do for a long time. I may look different on the outside BUT i am the same me on the inside. And that will never change. i believe whole heartedly in staying true to ones self. Iv been working on my drawing, its gotten alot better now that i actually have time to do it more. I really missed drawing and all that stuff. I have gotten in contact with a bunch of my friends from school again. I missed them alot, havnt seen all of them for like 2 years. got to hang out with a couple of them last week it was awesome. I missed them! I cant really think of much else to write right now. so I will leave you with that... talk to you allll later!
Niki
LOVESTORY~~♥♥
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty and he said no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away,tears streaming down her face. The boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be withyou forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... ♥♥ ~~THE END~~ ♥♥.......
I want a guy like that :(
My Lullaby
Is the sound of your heart beating
My Lullaby
Is the sound of your voice
My Lullaby
Is your soft touch
My Lullaby
Is you laying next to me
My Lullaby
Is you
Its been 3 long years since you've been gone. It seems just like yesterday i got the phone call saying that you had passed away. I sit here this morning and think of all the times i would come over and we would talk and you would teach me a new trick in cooking to cut back on dishes. A cup of flour is a handful, a tablespoon of baking powder is a palm full. Remembering how we all cried when we found out that you had cancer...we were all afraid but you told us not to worry and it would all be okay. You put up a long a courageous fight for 3 years. I remember riding the hour commute almost daily to go to the doctors for check ups and blood work, chemotherapy, and pain managment. We all learned little tricks of our own to cut back on your pain, and sickness. on May 6th,2006 i guess you decided it was time to give up that fight. And for a week we all sat at your bedside in your home. Checking your temperature, blood pressure, fixing your IV's and keeping you comfortable as you lived out your last days with us. You went peacefully, quietly, with only a few of us around to say goodbye. I can still remember Pop coming over to you and kissing your lips and saying " I love you Eva. I will see you when i get there." It broke our hearts to see you go but we knew that the pain, and the suffering, and the fight was over. We all miss you gram.... I love you.....
Niki
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so go to that link and bid on me!
Muahz
Darling Niki
This is the USMC Girlfriend Handbook:
1) Dont count on anything, hurry up and wait
2) Dont Listen to anyone on the outside,All you will get is negative remarks, which make things harder for you to deal with.
3) When he becomes stubborn and a royal pain in the ass, just remind yourself hes probably had a bad day,and being away from you is hard on him to. So just let him rant and dont take it personal.
4) When your down, treat yourself.
5) Learn how to listen if you dont know how! He will need you. You will be the one he comes to when he needs to bitch, but dont bitch back. That is what the USMC girlfriend is for! This is a hard time for our men, and they need us much more than sometimes they think they do.
6) Love your marine, be truthful, and reassure him, even if hes deployed, he will have someone to come back to.
7) He will try to pull away at some point, whether directly telling you to move on and not wait for him, or just becoming distant. Its a way they try to deal. Stick with him because he really does want (and need) you there.
8) When he is away for a long time, or even just a couple hours, write alot of letters! Communication is key to a relationship!
9) Some of his friends will probably be morons...expect this.
10) You arent the only woman in his life. His mom loves and misses him to, so make sure she is updated on what is going on with him.
11) He needs to feel important, so dont hold back on the compliments- remind him of how proud you are of what he does.
12) Chances are they wont call when they say they will.
13) Dont buy that non refundable plane ticket to early.
14) When eating with a marine either finish your "chow" in 15 minutes or less or be stared at until you are finished.
15) Never take one single minute with them for granted. Live each day with them like its the last one you will have in a while, because with the Marine Corps, it just might be.
16) Take lots of pictures so you can remember what eachother looks like.
17) Dont even TRY to compare your Marine to ordinary men.You can no longer complain about broken plans, that phone call you were supposed to get but didnt, missed birthdays and anniversaries, his snoring (hey at least hes sleeping BESIDE you), spending more time with "the boys" then you ect, ect,ect,ect.
18) Always look on the bright side of things. How many of your gal pals get to get their first encounter, first date, first kiss from their men over and over again?
19) Gotta be able to keep up with your man. We give our Marines a whole new meaning of PT.
20) Even if he says he will, he probably wont. Maybe really means probably not, OR probably not when he said he would.
21) Being a Marines girlfriend is the toughest job in the corps. You have to deal with stress similar to the wives, without the promise of forever or the benefits and support they get.
22) We find ourselves using military lingo. "Im going to get my room squared away.", "Its chow time.", or using military time.
23) Patients is the BIGGEST key to making the relationship work. You have to wait alot, but in the end, waiting is what makes it worthwhile.
Semper Fi to My Marine ♥
So i had to go into work today and talk to my boss... didnt know what it was all about but had a feeling... i was semi right about my feeling.., Due to the fact that i am going to be going to school in July for Cosmetology, and need a schedual change at work and my call ins since i started working there (which for 90% of them i have doctors notes saying i was UNABLE to work) I have to put a 2 week notice in before July. I dont understand WHY they keep picking at me, and never touch the people whom call in ever weekend when it is their weekend to work. I dont fuckin get it... But whatever.. so i have to look for a new job ASAP. I am so friggin pissed off right now... GOD FUCKING DAMN!
How is it possible that someone can say they love you so much yet hate everything you represent and do? Like they will say "I love everything about you...BUT this this this and this."
How in gods name is that possible? If they Love everything about you how can they hate just certain things? It makes no fuckin sense to me... i guess im just confused.... someone PLEASE explain this to me...
Okay i have an Auction folder, go place your bids!
Currently up for auction:
Nurse Naughty
~*ViXeNz LoVe*~
both auctions end April 15th!!! make your bids!!!