events have occured recently that have caused me to slip away from myself and there are a few here that might actually care about this. there are things i have said/done recently that do not reflect who i am and sometimes it is a real struggle to maintain what i am, what i wish to be. as all of us are i am a work in progress and now reality needs to settle in and the fun must begin, letting any serious notions on this site just slip away and enabling me to be the more light hearted, and enlightened one i once felt i was. of course there is a good possibilty that i am not all that enlightened lol