A LETTER FROM RYAN
Mom, I need to talk please listen to me, I know how much you hurt I can see your agony Mom, I know the order of life sometimes gets switched around parents get left behind on earth as children walk Heaven's ground Mom, I wasn't scared when God held out his hand for HE already gave me a glimpse of the promise land Mom, there really are waterfalls everything is peaceful here, I wish you could see Heaven's beauty it might help to soothe your tears Mom, I want to tell you again I am REALLY OK I told you that once before Remember OUR talk that day? Mom, I didn't leave you I am still by your side I see you every day and it hurts to see you cry Mom, God needed me it was time for me to go, but I know you love & miss me because you tell me so Mom, I know you can't see me but I am still a part of you, please tell Grammine & Aunie all that I am telling you Mom, remember when I left 3 times I squeezed your hand it meant "I Love You" I knew you would understand Mom, I'm holding your hand just as you did mine that day remember the smile I left you with? It hasn't gone away! I know your heart is broken for I was your only son, but Mom my life isn't over it has only just begun. Written By: Trudy S. (Ryan's Mother) Febuary 3, 2005
EVERY DAY
Every day Ryan, I struggle through Every day Ryan, I think of you Every day Ryan, Is like years Every day Ryan, I shed tears Every day Ryan, Is not the same Every day Ryan, I say your name Every day Ryan, Your on my mind Every day Ryan, I want to turn back time Every day Ryan, It's nothing new Every day Ryan, I am missing you Every day Ryan, Our hero – my son Every day Ryan, We are still one Every day Ryan, I look to the sky Every day Ryan, I ask why? Every day Ryan, I pray for you And one day Ryan, I'll be there too! Written By: Trudy S. (Mother) Date: November 9th, 2004
YESTERDAY, TODAY & TOMORROW
Yesterday I reached to touch you and you were easy to be found, yesterday I listened to your voice and perfectly heard each sound. Yesterday I called your name and your voice filled the air, yesterday I looked for you and you were standing there. Today I reached out to touch you, yet you were no where to be found, today I listened for your voice yet couldn't hear it's sound. Today I called your name, yet my voice just drifted in the air, today I looked for you yet you were no longer there. Yesterday is a memory I will keep close to my heart, for even in death, my son we are not apart. Today is a gift... one with out measure, and my memories of you, dear son are now a priceless treasure. Tomorrow is not promised but in your passing I say peace, for with a smile upon your face your earthly spirit was released. Written By: Trudy S. (Ryans Mother) May - 2004