Yanno ive always been a down to earth kinda girl, never shallow, always honest and perky, played hard but safe, and always tried to see whats the real person under those eyes. Spent most of my life sad but with some happy. Ive always done the right thing because thats how its suppose to be. Ive never used someone just for my benefit. And ive never cheated on someone. Seems ive always done the "right thing". But it gets me down that i look around and everyone else (almost) has more or has achieved what they have for playing hard and dirty. Always finding an easy way out or the easy way to obtain anything. It makes me feel stupid to work sooo hard for something i could easily get with a smile or a flirt, just by give a "lil" of my time to someone. i dnt know am i rambling? or does this make sooo much sense? or am i just taking pity on myself? seems its soo much easier to do what everyones doing and just follow the flow. But im getting tired of doing the "right thing". sometimes i just want to do what i want to do with out thinking it over or thinking about "omg what are ppl gonna think". doesnt seem anyone else cares what other ppl say....so why should i?