im so scared right now, i love my little so so much, more than anything,or anyone, it kills me everytime that i have to take them home, i always leave with tears in my eyes, i hate that their home was torn apart, i mostly hate myself for it. i cant stay sober for to long anymore, i start dwelling on things, and i know that this is killing me as well, oh yeah and i am sorry to those ive not been around for too much on here lately, i hope you understand. anyway there is alot more that i am feeling i just dont know how to let it out anymore, it just keeps boiling up inside me, and i am so scared that im just gonna blow up...but whatever, im gonna try to get some sleep now, my babies will be here nice and early in the morning....wish me luck on that sleep thing...lol