I dream of words once promised, and now I start a life a new...
Sitting here, listneing to music... wondering, what's going on whith you ???
Where you're at, and how you are ? Have you finally healed THAT scar?
Now, I'm in love ; a SCARRY thought, wanting to get married... cause he is my heart !
Drinkin' a beer ; sitting at the ' puter, pondering on my future.
But... still my thoughts come back to you........
what's up ? HOW ARE YOU ?
I know I'll never see you again, but for so long you WERE my best friend !
I wish you were here to wish me well ; have some kind words ... something to tell.
This pain within my soul... Only one thing can make me whole !
Just so you know... it's 5 am, what the fuck , GOD DAMN !!!!
I can't sleep, or find no peace. Why is it so hard to escape your release?
What kind of a hold of you have on me ? From a million miles away ?
I'm so in love with someone other than you , so why am I wide awake texting you ?
Listening to these songs , they're driving me insane ... FORCING ME to deal with my pain !!! Confronting what I try to avoid ; sitting here paranoid.
I need my meds back, cause I'm stuck in my head , blinded and seeing RED !!!
Laying here, my husband to be , sleeping so contently.
So why am i sitting here writng this ???
NO WHERE else for my feelings to confess !