I've had this song in my head all day.. thought I'd share my thoughts, first read the lyrics, the song is called 'Have you ever' by 'The Offspring'
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Falling, I'm falling
Falling, I'm Falling
Have you ever walked through a room
But it was more like the room passed around you
Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through
Have you ever been at someplace
Recognizing everybody's face
Until you realized that there was no one there you knew
Well I know
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, I'm so outshined and out of time
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Falling, I'm falling
Have you ever buried your face in your hands
Cause no one around you understands
Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be
Have you ever felt like there was more
Like someone else was keeping score
And what could make you whole was simply out of reach
Well I know
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Falling, I'm falling
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, my darkest friend is me again
Have you ever
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
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Anyone else feeling like this? I am tired of feeling like the victim in life. It sometimes does feel like someone is keeping score.. u know? And what really doesn't help is that I have a hangover from hell today.. lol. And I had like 4 hours sleep before work. Anyone else feel like complaining today? :)
The last 3 weeks have been really dark for me since my best friend Darren passed away. I try to keep telling everyone that he's dead.. I guess, in an attempt to start believing that it really did happen. That he'll never call me again.. that I'll never hear his voice or his laugh again. That I'll never see those crystal blue eyes of his twinkle while we sit by the beach.. it's hard to believe that night even happened.
Enough of my depressing ramblings.. how's everyone else doing today?