Lost and Alone
I feel sad and alone
Confused and scared
With no place to turn
Unable to run
Whoever said
Growing up was fun
I’m not 22, 23 or 24
I have self respect
And I’m not a whore
I’m smart and witty
Employed and pretty
Loyal, caring, kind and sincere
So what’s wrong here?
I would think this would be
What every man wants
Someone like me
Not dirty little cunts
But not this man, He wants it all
Me by his side for moments that count
Then push me away, and fill my place
With one who is full of shame and disgrace
How can it be that he would desire us both
Kiss me softly and touch me dear
Then call up the slut and ask
Bitch, why aren’t you here?
His desires he says must be met
But that doesn’t mean he loves me less
Just give it time and one day you will see
You are the only one meant for me
I can’t help but feel unwanted and lost
And time, it seems, will keep marching on
And one day instead of seeing I’m his
I’ll be all alone and just reminisce
About how once I thought I was his world
And now, sadly, I’m not even his girl
~February 8, 2007