I am Vincent. I have been on fubar since it was known as lostcherry.com and I am always looking to make new friends. I am not very good at filling out these online profiles, but if any one has any questions feel free to ask :) I do not bite...so feel free to come by and say hi :) As not good as I am at filling out these information parts of a profile; I have gathered enough information to give it a go. Yes, I am always looking to make friends, that is what is supposed to be good about life, right? Meeting new people and making new friends. I also have a problem, I hope to much. I hope and I pray that (as silly as this may sound) for my happy ending. I believe in happy endings, even for something like me. I, however, am the Beast, it has been engrained into my psyche since day one and I have problems letting go of that, hence why I keep to myself a lot, I do not always know the right things to say so I end up spending a lot of time lost and alone. That is all I have been in the real world, alone. My last "successful" relationship was in 2006, but that only lasted six months * sigh * I also realize that I may not be everyone's cup of tea, I get that and I accept it, heck I barely know what to say except "Hello" "Thank you" and "You're welcome" when a beauty or anyone for that matter does something nice for me.
It may seem to be a strange sentiment for me to say this, but I am not alone any more, but still alone at the same time. Words get in the way, and different view points are a matter of perception. While in person I am alone. I do not have anyone to stand by me and say things like "let's go get a coffee" or whatever is popular to do nowadays I am, to me, still alone.
I am an empath, I would think that may make me a little more aware on how people feel about me, and in reality, I know and have seen how they can be, but since becoming a member of the world wide web, I thought my horizons might expand and the glimmer of hope that I had would grow, but it has only shrunk even further by being bullied and mean people online who I do not think understand. Admitting all this here feels like I am opening a vein so everyone can see that I do bleed and I can become wounded, but I do not know how many people take notice, or take the time to notice such a weakness in exposure.
I am the nerd, geek, the whatever regular people do to the outliers in school. As I have said, since day one mixing with other people I have been called, I think, almost every negative adjective/description in the book. The one that stuck with me the most is when a girl in school said when I had enough courage to ask her out "why would I ever go out with a Beast like you" I know what the insult meant, but I took Beast and have been living with that ever since. As I have stated in my introduction before; feel free to ask any question you would like I will be more than happy to answer. It is after that, I will not know what to do and to be honest I am sure I ever will. I have been slain so many times by beauties putting me down, or making sure I know my place that I know never to look up and realize that I may be alone forever. I still shoot for the moon though, even though I know a lot of beauties are beyond my reach. The glimmer of hope I once I had is now "one grain of sand, it is all that remains of my vast empire" as I continue to solider on through life, taking on the weight of the world, but never letting it stop me from trying to do...something. I just know that I have worn so many masks to try to blend in, I do not know what my true face looks like any more...a very limited number of people may know it. I am the me that I have always been, I do not hide behind my name or a fake persona, they person on the other end of this handle is me...
Note: I am a single, straight male. As nice as the comments are that I have been getting, although they are rare :) I am an open mind of all races, genders, and sexuality types, but if you are one of the select few that has access to my pictures, please keep in mind that I did not post the pictures that I did for any purpose other than to get me out of my own comfort zone. Apparently staying in the lines is not what life is all about, so I chose to experiment. Thank you for all the very nice comments, just the messages I have been getting in "my drinks or gifts" box from men have been making me a little uncomfortable. I do not know how to say anything and not sound hurtful, so I am humbly and respectfully requesting that if you are one of the few that can see my personal pictures, please think before you say anything to me :) It would be very much appreciated :) Thank you very much :)
I have another humble request please, if you come by and are interested in owning me, please wait until I am not being owned any more. The person who owns me has a right to let their time owning me to come to its fourteen day conclusion and if they want to re-up, they are more than welcome too, but just I humbly ask that you look first to see if I am owned. If no one owns me, then you, if you should be interested in wanting to own me are more than welcome to :) I do not play the "how many owners can I get game?" I have never been a fan of that particular game on here, heck I am honored and humbled if someone would like to own me for fourteen days. Please respect me, like you would respect any one else who has certain rules in place :) I would also like to point out that if someone does own me, they are using their hard earned Fubucks, please do not misuse the person's funds that they have used for purchasing me...it is a precious commodity and a value that I take great pride in wanting to be owned. If it comes down to it, I will play "the game" the only way I know how and stop being able to be purchased by people, I do not like playing that game but it is the only way I can show how much I do not like it when people take advantage of other people that are nice enough to own me. Thank you very much to all :)
An update; since May since is mental health awareness month, I humbly request that if you know of anyone who is having problems in their personal or professional life, but yet continue to smile and pretend like there is nothing wrong, please stop and ask the person how they really are. I know from personal experience what it is like to smile through the pain of every thing that life has to give you. I am lucky enough to have one, maybe two friends that check up on me on occasion, but there are always those people out there who may not have anyone. So, please be kind and considerate to everyone always; although they may be bright and smiling on the outside, no one known what is stirring deep within their depths at the core that they do not want anyone to show. To quote a famous movie rocker, "be excellent to each other" and I always wish the same kindness to all of you in return :)
Update: Even though this is something I probably should not share as sentiment as an overall whole, I feel it may be wise for me to share this way if anyone who sees me or wonders what I may be like or about may know better and thoroughly advised; I am poison. It has been revealed to me lately that I am a poison to everyone that is why people do not talk with me. Those who have before I have turned away not only because they do not like me or because I simply do not understand people, but just as an overall understanding of human nature in general. As much confidence as one should have to dispel any harshness or insuperiority one may feel when being spoken down to I have also realized, that after much reflection and not being able to reach any other logical conclusion that this person is right. I messed up a relationship with a great woman because I was not interpreting things correctly and i overreacted, as I have known many people to do. I have never excluded myself from being able to do that, but I would like to think that some times my perception allows me to focus in on certain points that others might not, but I am dead wrong. So, do go on I have no one to blame but myself for everything that has every been bad that has happened to me, which I can accept, I do not like to point fingers, but when someone points it out to me and has me take a good look at myself and reflect, I cannot help but see how right a person is. I am a danger, a toxic poison to everyone hence why I do not have anyone in my real life; because the toxicity comes off of me in waves. Even those who do manage to get close get touched by the venom that I leak and I never wanted to be like that for anyone. I am at the point now of surrendering to everything and not having any more hope, because although the last person I thought I was establishing something with I burned to the ground because of just how hazardous I am * sigh * I just wanted to give fair warning, I know I should be able to put down negative thoughts like that, but the person i have been talking with is right; the hazardous, toxic material that I emit is what makes me not only alone, but unloveable and a waste of human flesh. I do no know what to do, except with draw even further. I just wanted issue a fair warning. To all of my family and friends on Fu I do apologize, I will be attempting to narrow my presence even further. I hope that everyone continues to live well and enjoy life; live long and prosper for tomorrow is never guaranteed. The needs of the many out weight the needs of the few, or the one...
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