Beckie's blog: "Beckie's Blog"

Hello Friends. Well for those of you that read my last blog about my birthday was yesterday. I had wrote that I was only going out to eat at Olive Gargen for lunch and that I would be home alone the rest of the day. I felt kind of sad about that. I never have a party since I moved to FL here away from my parents. Well my Grandparents picked me up and we drove to the Olive Garden and we were walking back to our table. Once we got there I look up and ALL of my family were there. They all yelled surprize!! I was so shocked! All of my aunts and uncles, and cousins, and grandpanents. It was so awesome. I got some gifts and even a cake. I had such a wonderful afternoon. I never though that they would do that for me. :D Well, I had a very nice bday! One I will always remember!

Hello friends! I don't know if it is okay to post this as a blog but... Today is my Birthday! :D I am 28 years old. Yay! I am not doing very much for my bday, all of my family is busy today. :( I will be alone most of the day. So, maybe some of you could send me a comment to cheer me up or something. Thanks. *hugs* I love my CherryTap friends! <3 Beckie <3

Hello friends! I am so sorry that I have not been on for the past few weeks. I have been going through a lot lately. I have been dealing with my medical issues, lots of stress, and feeling depressed, plus lack of sleep. Things just have been hard for me lately. Please for give me for not being on here and talking to you all, and commenting back to you all. :( I feel bad about that. I will try to get on more when I feel up to it. My birthday is coming very soon, it is Nov 5 on this sunday. Sad thing is I will be home alone most of the day. :( I am only going out for lunch, that's all. :( Well, I hope to hear from you all soon. *hugs* Beckie <3

*It's been a year daddy I really really miss you Mommy says your safe now In a beautiful place called heaven* Oh I'm thinking about our younger years *We had your favorite dinner tonite* there was only you and me *I ate it all up* We were young and wild and free *Even though I don't like carrots* Now nothing can take you away from me *I learned how to swim this summer* We've been down that road before *I can even open my eyes* But that's over now *While I'm under water* You keep me coming back for more *Can't you see me?* Baby you're all that I want When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven *I started kindergarten this year* Love is all that I need And I found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven *I carry a picture of us In my Blue's Clues lunchbox* Oh once in your life you find someone *You are the greatest daddy* Who will turn your world around Pick you up when you're feeling down Now nothing can change what you mean to me *I can swing on the swing by myself* There's a lot that I could say But just hold me now *Even though I miss you pushing me* Cause our love will light the way *Can't you see me?* Baby you're all that I want When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven *I miss how you used to tickle me* And love is all that I need *Tickle my belly* And I found it there in your heart *My belly hurts* It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven *I try not to cry* I've been waiting for so long *Mommy says it's okay* For something to arrive For love to come along *I know you don't like it when I cry* Now our dreams are coming true Through the good times and the bad *You never wanted me to be sad* I'll be standing there by you *I try Daddy but it hurts* Baby you're all that I want *Is it true you're not coming home?* When you're lying here in my arms *Maybe someday* I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven *I can visit you in heaven, okay?* And love is all that I need And I've found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven *It's time for me to go bed now I sleep with the light on Just in case you come home And kiss me good night I love you so much I miss you Daddy* http://www.phrozenflame.com/flashclip/236 Please watch. I cry everytime I do. :(

Wishing on a dream that seems far off Hoping it will come today Into the starlit night Foolish dreamers turn their gaze Waiting on a shooting star But What if that star is not to come? Will their dreams fade to nothing? When the horizons darkens most We all need to believe there is hope Is an angel watching closely over me? Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see I know my heart should guide me but There's a hole within my soul What will fill this emptiness inside of me? Am I to be satisfied without knowing? I wish is then for a chance to see Now all I need Is my star to come... http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/shii.php Please watch! I cry everytime I do. ^__^

Well I got back from the doctor today and he is going to run some blood work on me and find out why I have been so tired all the time. I have been feeling this way for almost a year now. :( First I had anemia but I think it was more than that. He is going to test me for low B12. If it is low then I will be needing to get shots of b12 to help it, and I will be feeling better. He will be testing for other things also to see if anything else is causing the tiredness. I am going in for the test tomorrow morning, and will go back to the doctor next week. I also found out I have a UTI, so thats why I have been feeling so sick. :( I am on some meds to help that now. I hope to feel better soon. Please send your prayers my way that this will all go away soon and I will not be so tired all of the time. I am so sick of dealing with it. Thanks! :D

Hey everyone! I am sorry that I have not been on that much the last few days. I have been feeling sick. :( I am going to the doctor on Tuesday. I hope I can get some meds and start to feel better soon. I feel awful. I will try to get on here as much as I can. I need something to cheer me up. I hate feeling sick. Waa! :( Beckie <3

I have been feeling sad and depressed the last two days. Something happen but I just dont feel like taking about it here. It did not happen here though. I just feel so alone, and sad. A part of me feeling like no one cares. :( I am sorry that I feel that way, but I do. I hope I will feel better soon. I guess I just need something to cheer me up... *sighs*

I have been feeling sad today. Been missing my dog Page that was put to sleep Oct 15, 2003. He was the sweetest dog. I loved his so much. He had gotten cancer on his butt and became very sick. He was suffering for a while and we decided to put him to sleep. I know that was the right thing to do. That day was the hardest day of my life having to let him go. He only lived 11 years, not too long. :( I will always remember him. I just was sad today b/c I was going through some old pics of him. I put some up on my fridge. I hope he is happy in heaven and will always remember me. <3 RIP Page *Died Oct 15 2003*

Another day and I am tired again. I am tired all of the time, everyday. I know that I still have the low iron in my blood. I need to go back to the doctor and get another test done. I have been feeling this way way to long. I might need to see my doctor back in NC. I will go home for Christmas so I will see what happens then. It just is so hard living day by day feeling so tired all day no matter how much sleep I get. :( Ah, but life will go on....